Sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yor olmak \u00e7ok g\u00fczel hayat\u0131n en g\u00f6r\u00fcnen \u00f6zel g\u00fczelli\u011fidir bence. Ummad\u0131k beklenmedik bir ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar i\u00e7inde kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131ka gelen kara burun gibi durumda, bana s\u0131r soruyu sordular: en g\u00fcvendi\u011fin \u00fc\u00e7 isim yaz, seni temsil edip koruyup kay\u0131ts\u0131z \u015farts\u0131z yan\u0131nda durup g\u00f6nl\u00fcnce severek koruyup kollayacak? G\u00fcnlerce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm bir tek e\u015fim Lieva’n\u0131n ismini yaza bildim, i\u015fte budur ge\u00e7ek, h\u00e2lbuki yetmi\u015fe merdiven dayam\u0131\u015f ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m var. Neptun Halil a\u011fa lakab\u0131 ile an\u0131lan tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Yazamad\u0131m ikinci \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir isim, demek ki ard\u0131mda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m izlerim silinmi\u015f, denizin her an\u0131 yalad\u0131\u011f\u0131, kumlukta r\u00fczg\u00e2rla k\u00f6p\u00fcren dalgalar\u0131n f\u0131rt\u0131nalar\u0131ndan sahillere u\u00e7u\u015fan k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fclerin silinip kaybolu\u015fu gibi yok olma, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 h\u00fczn\u00fcme kap\u0131ld\u0131m, kime ne diyem, bu benim eserim, yazamad\u0131m atamam, yazamad\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7 isim, ikisini. Bir evlat \u00e7ekirdek aile, on karde\u015f, altm\u0131\u015f civar\u0131 ye\u011fen, sonunda yazamad\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7 isim. \u00dclkemdeki hal gidi\u015f Atat\u00fcrk’\u00fcn T\u00fcrkiye Cumhuriyetinden, kelime oyunla dalaverelerle \u015feriat tek adam rejimine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f ekonomide \u00e7\u00f6kme arifesi b\u00fct\u00fcn kom\u015fularla neredeyse kanl\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7akl\u0131 sava\u015f tehdit \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rtkan naralar O hal s\u0131k\u0131y\u00f6netim i\u00e7inde, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00f6zleyen adaleti g\u00f6zleyen. Her g\u00fcn gelen \u015fehitlere \u00fcz\u00fclmekten kan\u0131ksan\u0131p g\u0131na gelen, \u00fclke olarak f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 karabulutlar i\u00e7indeki yolculu\u011fumuz, \u00fczerine da\u011f do\u011fasever gezgin y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f g\u00fcrb\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn, Adrasan yolunda ba\u015flar\u0131na gelen beklenmedik ummad\u0131k G\u00f6\u00e7 Yolu grup lideri d\u00e2hil sevgili de\u011ferli insanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kazalar\u0131. Alt\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131r her hafta sonu Pazar da\u011flar\u0131n do\u011fas\u0131n birlikte payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, be\u015f arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yitip gitti\u011fini ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, 2017 y\u0131l\u0131n bizi duraksatan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcren \u00e7aresizli\u011fin \u00e7areleriyle hayata biraz daha fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla ba\u011flayan, zaman\u0131n f\u0131\u015fk\u0131ran g\u00fczelliklerini fark etmeyen y\u00f6n. Yaz \u0130\u015fte bak ne g\u00fczel bir \u00f6rnek bunu yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m sabah\u0131n \u015fafak vakti seher g\u00fczelli\u011finde elektrik kesildi tepedeki evimde, daha hen\u00fcz \u015fafak sonu g\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fc, do\u011fu y\u00f6n\u00fcndeki g\u00f6r\u00fcnen k\u00f6yde cadde \u0131\u015f\u0131klar yan\u0131yor, salondan bat\u0131nda bize ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fu mahalle \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131, bir anda sevindim kesinti yaln\u0131z bizde de\u011fil. Yani zorluktan ihtimali s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131dan mutluluk do\u011fdu bir anda. \u0130\u015fte bu g\u00f6steriyor her \u015feye ra\u011fmen sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yor olmam\u0131z g\u00fczelli\u011fini, ac\u0131y\u0131 bal edip ya\u015fam azminin cazip \u00f6zel \u00f6zlemlerin. Duygusal samimi i\u00e7tenlikleriyle ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fl\u0131klardan d\u00f6k\u00fclen ger\u00e7eklikler, tabi ki aslana engel de\u011fil gelecekte beklenen mutluluk i\u00e7indeki ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131za. Zaman i\u00e7inde yaralar, hayat\u0131n do\u011fas\u0131 gere\u011fi iyile\u015ferek maziyle kapan\u0131r. \u0130\u015fte ya\u015fama dair ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131, ya\u015fam merdiven dayad\u0131 yetmi\u015fe, diye ba\u015fl\u0131yor \u015fiirimde anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7erikler 14 y\u0131ld\u0131r aksaks\u0131z, onunla i\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fum halkoyunlar\u0131 zeybeklerim, zeybekler g\u00f6steri ekibi zenginlik. Son on be\u015f y\u0131lda okuryazar oldum, orta lise diploma \u00fcniversiteye giri\u015f s\u0131navlar\u0131 imtihanlar\u0131 k\u00fct\u00fcphanemin olu\u015fun yenilenen hayat\u0131m. Zeybeklerim da\u011f do\u011fa sevdas\u0131yla gezginli\u011fim, s\u0131f\u0131rl\u0131 art\u0131ya kavu\u015fma huzurun, odun yeni ya\u015fam veren sevda. \u0130\u015fte zaman\u0131n i\u00e7inde kalan g\u00fczelliklerim. Babama \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131m hayat i\u00e7inde a\u011fa\u00e7 kakan gibi \u00e7eyrek asr\u0131 \u00e7oktan a\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131r. \u0130\u00e7imi didikleyen i\u00e7imdekiler yazamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fim g\u00fcl semde a\u011fla\u015fmada kulak \u00e7\u0131nlamas\u0131 gibi bir \u015fey, n\u00fcfusumda k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tl\u0131, tan\u0131m\u0131yor tan\u0131m\u0131yorum, alam\u0131yor atam\u0131yorum, anlamland\u0131ramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m UFO. Baba a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131 UFO sunu ya\u015f\u0131yordu bo\u015flu\u011fundaki iz benimkisi. Tabi ki g\u00fcvenip sevdiklerim vard\u0131, hayat\u0131n ger\u00e7ekleri i\u00e7inde, g\u00f6n\u00fcl duygu ba\u011f\u0131mda ya\u015f\u0131yorlar. Ya\u015fama dair \u015fiirimin son sat\u0131r\u0131 ‘Hadi v\u00fccuduna iyi bak Neptun Halil orda ya\u015fam sende g\u00fczel’ diye sonlan\u0131yor. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n en iyisi en g\u00fczel herklesin kendisi, \u00f6ncelikle kendini severek kendine inan g\u00fcven diyor ya\u015fam bana. Kal\u0131c\u0131 dostluklar\u0131n insanlar\u0131 i\u00e7inde gizleme i\u00e7inden gelen duygu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce sevdi\u011fin sevgileri yaz, bak ne diyorsun yorganc\u0131 \u0130brahim’e: \u201c All\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fc nazili basma baklava burma dilimli \u00e7i\u00e7ekli \u00e7ar\u015fafl\u0131 \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun yorgan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 istiyorum. \u201ddiyorsun. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funu anarak an\u0131ms\u0131yor ar\u0131yorsun, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fun o dayan\u0131lmaz saf temiz net berrak ak p\u0131narl\u0131 g\u00fczel duygular\u0131 \u00f6zleyerek yenileme arzu hayaline ko\u015fuyorsun i\u015fte. \u0130\u015fte yenileye durdu\u011fun farkl\u0131 ya\u015fama dair fark\u0131ndal\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaln\u0131z geldin sonunda yaln\u0131z gideceksin. Madde akar i\u015fini e\u015fime b\u0131rakt\u0131m on y\u0131ld\u0131r. Akardan kokarda uzakla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz bula\u015fmadan, as\u0131l olan bize d\u00f6n\u00fcyoruz. Tabi ya\u015fama bi\u00e7imimizde yenileniyor, kendimizle kucakla\u015farak yak\u0131nla\u015f\u0131yoruz. Ancak bu d\u00f6nemle zaman \u00e7ok h\u0131zl\u0131 ak\u0131p gidiyor, kabullenemiyorum i\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fum ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 gen\u00e7li\u011fin zirvesin deyim sanki. Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde mevcut farkl\u0131 hayat bi\u00e7iminin devam\u0131 ile yetiniyor, adaletli berat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcr huzurlu, do\u011fas\u0131nda, yeni ufuklar izinde eksik kalan hayaller ile g\u00f6nl\u00fcmce duygu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce \u00f6zlemiyle dolaca\u011f\u0131m y\u0131l olacak 2018 y\u0131l\u0131 ihtimalin. Tabi ki inan\u0131yorum hay\u0131r var, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ilkokuldaki okumay\u0131 yazmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim, iliklerimize kadar yokluklar i\u00e7inde, hayat yoluna ad\u0131m att\u0131\u011f\u0131m okul numaram on sekizdir. \u00d6mr\u00fcmce u\u011furlu numaramd\u0131 mavi renk izlerim.
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